Birthdays

Isn't it funny how when you were a kid, your birthday was one of the most exciting days of the year? You looked forward to your birthday almost as much as Christmas! I still love the IDEA of my birthday, I mean a day when people send you cards, sometimes gifts! The last few years, though, I have started to dread the coming of my birthday. I hate being reminded that I am another year older! I rarely admit my true age to anyone, and I figure that once you hit 21, it really doesn't matter anyway!
When I'm having one of those days that I'm feeling sorry for myself, I can't help but think how it seems like my life has been on hold the last few years. I always assumed I would get married and have a family, and I've just been sitting around, waiting for that to happen. The older I get, the more I have come to realize that it may not happen. Let me tell you, this has not been easy for me to admit! I have never planned to be anything except a wife and mother, and now I am contemplating what else God may have in store for me.
So, as this birthday is quickly approaching, I feel like this is an appropriate time to reflect and pray, and try to move forward with my life, instead of just existing. I'm excited to see what will happen next, and scared at the same time. I'm not good with doing things by myself, I usually like to have someone with me if I'm going somewhere new, or trying something different. As I begin this next phase of my life, I decided that I'd better take God with me! I think I have a habit of just forging ahead with my own ideas, and obviously, that has not been working for me! If you are reading this, please pray for me, and I'll keep you updated as to what I discover about myself and God!