Some things about me

I've been doing a lot of writing lately. I actually have two books that I am working on at the same time. I don't know that anyone will ever see them other than me, but I love writing, and I have all these thoughts that I  just feel the need to put down on paper. I came across this little bit that I wrote a few months ago, so  I figured I would share it. It's still unfinished, and I'm not sure if I will come back to it someday.

Sometimes, I hide my feelings. Sometimes, I pretend that everything is okay, when it’s really not. Sometimes, I pretend I’m fine, when I really am hurting or sick. Sometimes, I pretend I can see just fine, when really, I‘m having trouble seeing the ground right in front of me. Sometimes, I get frustrated because of the things I cannot do, and people don’t realize how hard that is. Sometimes, I get frustrated that I have to depend on other people. Sometimes, people can’t tell I feel bad, or that I have trouble seeing, because I don’t want them to know.


Sometimes, I keep my opinions to myself, because I don’t want to hurt your feelings, even though you just hurt me. Sometimes, I get angry when people say untrue or hurtful things about the people I love. Sometimes, you may not be able to tell I am upset with you, because I will pretend we are just fine.

I am so thankful that our God is not like me. It’s so comforting to know that He is always the same. He is never moody. He never pretends to be something He is not. No matter how often I fail Him, He never fails me. No matter how many foolish things I do, or how many times I do the same foolish thing over & over, He never gives up on me. He never loses His patience, or His temper. It’s hard for me to wrap my mind around – how could He do all this for me? How could He love me so much? And yet, He does.